Great question! Thank you.
Self-esteem is a word with many meanings. In Baba’s vocabulary it is based on the knowledge that we are complete beings and in the case of BK souls, that we are “ancestor souls.”
Whenever there is attachment we tend to over value someone’s opinion or attitude. Attachment to what?
Attachment to what I feel I am (role.) Attachment to the idea that I should be treated in a particular way, attachment that “I must be acknowledged.” All of those attachments are pointing to our mind-set of who we think we are. The problem is that we have not felt what is like to be a “detached observer” or as Baba has mentioned, to feel “body-less.”
Without those experiences on a regular basis, we still will be pulled by our “old ways of thinking and feeling” because we have not experienced anything to proof otherwise. That is why, even though we have gyan, knowledge of what Baba has told us, we cannot process that for lack of experience. We can say that we trust and have faith in what Baba says, but that is just at the “word and mouth” level. Too much talk without the walk.
In short: We need to experience to be “body=less.” We need to experience the soul in yoga. We need to feel that inner completeness and then automatically “self-esteem” will be there without using that word. That experience needs to be “constant” for otherwise, we forget and we get pulled again to our old patterns.
Such is the behavior of the “Maya addicts.” 🙂