Question: How to differntiate between: “Behad ka vairagya i.e. unlimited disinterest” and negativity? Because sometimes I feel that I do not have any role to play anymore in my “Soul” in lokik (and I should totally dedicate myself to Godly Service) so is it unlimited disinterest or Negativity towards”Karma”?

Interesting question, Thank you.

“Unlimited disinterest, ” is not a dictionary word to look up. It is an experience and if you have experienced it, you will see that it is the most “positive” thing there is. It is the complete “opposite” of negativity.

Let me describe what I have experienced. “Unlimited disinterest” is a sense of knowing that everything which happens in our life is just an scene in the Drama and we have experienced that before.

Please do not take that from the “intellectual” viewpoint, but though gyan we are able to feel it and to watch things happening from a “distance.” That means that “normal” things do not bother you at all. One example in my life is the ‘importance’ that I gave to having a job. I had a well paid job at one point in my career and money in the bank as well. Once i lost that job, I started to panic. Even though I had money in the bank, I wanted to get a job similar to the one I had. This happened early in my BK “spiritual career.” I did not have faith in the Drama. I heard that many times in the Murli, but practically, I had none. I wanted things my way, and i wanted those things NOW.

I learned through life “pains” to have trust in the Drama as I saw how things worked out beautifully as long as spirituality was my main objective. I have been in so many jobs since then, and even though my monies were gone, I have never had a problem as far as how I will survive tomorrow. The Drama/Baba took care of me. Recently and after many years, the Drama gave me a job similar to what I had before, even when my “skills” in that particular trade were obsolete. That gave me faith in the Drama, so when a person is suffering because they lost a job; i am “detached” from that suffering.

I understand the suffering of that person, because I have been through it; but at the same time I had the faith that the Drama will provide when the time comes. In a few words, That episode of losing employment does not affect me anymore. Not because I have a bank account or because I know a VIP in such and such position, but because I know about the Drama. This is unlimited disinterest based on gyan. In that stage I could be supportive of that person without her “issues” affecting me.

In your case, doing “Godly service” can happen at any place at any time and in any circumstance. You are doing Godly service when you are with lokiks, no when you go away from them. BUT, you will “do real Godly service” when you have imbibed this knowledge, when there is “self service” first.

I have the impression that you feel that doing “Godly service” is to be a center niwasi, (being away from lokiks) dress in white and wear your badge for ‘official service.’ Nothing wrong with that if that is your call in life, but that is not the only way. Service is unlimited and for that, we need unlimited disinterest for then we become a “care free” emperor, a true child of the Almighty Father.

To answer your question now: It is unlimited disinterest if you feel that you want to help others. It is “negativity” if you feel that you want to get out of this world, this “lokik” world to be with “Godly Swans” only so you can serve the “lokiks.”

There couldn’t be service when there is division between the “lokiks” and the “alokiks.”

Best wishes!

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