Thank you for sharing your story. Please read this post as well.
Having personally experienced the friendship of a soul with bi-polar disorder, I could say that this is an ongoing challenge for you. Consider the fact that a life style of a BK will be challenging as well for you. Outsiders will not understand it. If those outsiders have known you while you were experiencing those bi-polar episodes, there is the likelihood that their “help” will be to get you out of your chosen spiritual path.
Also be aware that unless that illness is not affecting you, there is a likelihood that some conflicts may appear in your relationship with BKs and non-BKs as well. This is something that you need to understand fully.
I am saying this because above you shared “others didn’t help me to come out.” We cannot ask for others to help you to come out of it.
Be well to make those decisions. That is the most important priority.
As a BK, I could only suggest for you to hear the Murli and ask for answers while listening the Murli. As a friend, I would suggest to look for the advice of a local spiritual minded counselor who will know the details about you, your current life issues and your specific condition.
All the best.