The “proof” of feeling

A human being is surrounded by fields of distinct “energies.” I wish there was another word to describe the subtle which is in constant movement, whose influence is always there even though few can perceive them. “Energy” has a physical connotation. “The capacity to do work” it is said; but that has nothing to do with the subtle fields. Thus, I would use the word “subtle energy” to refer to this.
Why is this subtle? Because it is imperceptible for many.

“Spirituality” received its “way out there” stereotype when referring about things which couldn’t be proven to exist. Economics are proven to exist even though artificially created, but subtle energies cannot be proven for not everyone is capable to tune into them.

Why is there some who could perceive subtle energies and others cannot?
That is a matter of sensibility. In some countries, megaphones are used to sell fruits, vegetables an widgets; although, there is a law prohibiting annoying noises, the law is seldom enforced for the majority of individuals out of “convenience” (laziness,) would prefer to buy from these people as they drive by their homes. These “buyers” are used to great noise. It doesn’t bother them. Nevertheless, their sensibility to more sophisticated and educated ways to hear, will suffer. The same example holds true with the perception of subtle energies.

If we take care of our mental, physical and emotional health; then our odds to FEEL subtle energies will increase. The recipe of “wholesome health” has been provided by many systems, religions and philosophies; however, our society does not support “wholesome” but the opposite through unhealthy practices in the name of “improving the economy,” which I will not discuss here but I am sure, many are aware of.

Few individuals will gain sensibility.

Those with the ability to FEEL, are better equipped to understand how these subtle energies influence the behavior of human beings.

FEELING is a subjective “proof” until the collective consciousness agrees. We could feel emotions, feelings, subtle energies, which will give us a different picture and explanation than the one offered by reason and logic alone based on the perception of the “normal” senses.

Consider this: Life is on the side of FEELINGS. Our society values reason and logic alone. The outcome of FEELING Life is fulfillment. The outcome of reason and logic alone is to “be right.”
There is a huge difference. To “be right” doesn’t give fulfillment, ego perhaps and fear but we don’t feel lively, at peace which is what FEELING does.

Love, harmony, peace are felt not reasoned or thought out. There is no thinking involved. Do we see the issue? Reasoning kills our feelings. Our society mostly lives in the head. Thinking, reasoning, analysis, logic, etc. all of that is highly valued, but we cannot FEEL.

Have we ever seen someone playing a musical instrument by memory? (funny, we say by “heart”) That person knows the structure, the notes, the timing; but there is no music in what he plays. Unless, he puts his FEELING there.

What do we value in Life? The economy, the market, the six figures job, income…. All mind. Nothing wrong with that; but we cannot be fulfilled in Life because the mind knows no satisfaction. It is always looking for what is next, in the future or remembering the past. The mind cannot be in the “now.” The mind sings “I can’t get no (satisfaction).”

Life is balance and the new challenge in society is to put the mind in its “right” place which is behind FEELINGS, that is if we are interested in encouraging a wholesome human being who experiences love, peace and harmony. That human will be able to FEEL what most cannot at this time. On the other hand, a highly effective human taught to add and subtract like a computer and to calculate his movements as to avoid making “mistakes,” will not know what is like to FEEL fulfillment in his Life.

By feeling the outer subtle energies we could perceive how these will affect others and the self. By feeling the inner world we could know our intentions.
Why is that important?
I will be succinct. The “choice” is fear or fulfillment. Put your mind in the accumulation of things, add “gifts” to your personality to become “better” than others, to “succeed” in Life; fear of losing those things is unavoidable. The mind believes in “improving,” but that improvement is only accumulation. It is building the outer layers of the self. Here is the catch. Spiritual “improvement” does not come out of accumulation but in diminishing the outer layers to go into the root of the onion. Thus, when we go over the fear of losing, we gain.
How can we go over fear of losing unless we experience what is like to lose?
That requires a logical, reasonable answer from the mind. 🙂

The ontological question of BEING.

The “reality” of the “normal” person is surrounded by a man made “reality” of formulas, formalisms and philosophy known as economics. The poor and the rich are man made. That is not something coming from Nature or Life. That “reality” is what most humans are conscious of. A man made illusion which has become “real.”

Similarly, at this time in Spirituality; there is the “reality” of the “ethereal body” for some individuals. This is related with the touted “Ascencion to the 5th Dimension.” where it is said that “everyone in the planet will go through that.” That “5th dimension” is not a place. It is a state of consciousness where the bagagge of emotionality will be dropped by some individuals (those who are ready) with the outcome of a non-violent being who is ready to explore the meaning of love. Thus, the development and awareness of this vehicle (ethereal body) has importance according to this time.

Below is the conversation between Mathias ( A being of light manifesting as a tree of Nature) and Ahnanda about some ontologycal questions surrounding BEING. I am reproducing it, for it shows the interconnection of BEING with the Totality. The question of “who I am?” is answered in an orignal way. Note that many religions or philosophies may use other labels.

Ahnanda: Now that you mention about the importance of developing the ethereal body at this time, I read many articles with contradicting information about the ethereal body. Could you tell me what the ethereal body is?
Mathias: It is “you” but bigger. It is a world of giants. En each part of those worlds, there is “you” as well, but you are under the illusion that you are only here. The ethereal body is the body limit which unites these dimensions with another sublime reality where density is not nor duality. It maintains a connection and interaction. It is like the roots, stem, leaves and the flower. The ethereal body is the leaves before the flower.
Ahnanda: What is the flower in this analogy?
Mathias: The essence, my friend.
Ahnanda: The essence? That is what is known as “soul.”
Mathias: That is what is known as “spirit,” that is “you” not “I.”
Ahnanda: Isn’t the soul the essence, as I have been taught by religions?
Mathias: If you wish, we can call that soul.
Ahnanda: But, you call it spirit…
Mathias: Yes.
Ahnanda: And that flower is the one having experiences of many lives?
Mathias: The stem has the experience of many lives, my friend. What would you call the stem? The stem has two parts. The first one is the emotional body and the second part is the physical body made to enter duality. Then you have the roots.
Ahnanda: But that stem unites everything.
Mathias: Of course, my friend.
Ahnanda: And… where is consciousness then? I mean, the plant who is conscious of the stem, the roots and the flower.
Mathias: In the water, my friend.
Ahnanda: Water is the Universe?
Mathias: Everything. Water here is everything. It is called Totality.
Ahnanda: But there is a difference between the plant and the Totality, right?
Mathias: Correct. Do you want to know a label for that?
Ahnanda:Yes.
Mathias: It is called nothingness.

After the talk with Mathias, I was wondering what would be the “root” in this analogy of the plant.
When I recalled that he used the word “root” to refer to my ancestors, my “roots.” My past, my genes which make up my personality. That is the connection with the past, which is part of the stem.
Thanks to this talk, I understood how spiritual schools, religions and philosophies emphasize only one label, one thing as the most important aspect of the human being when responding to the question “who am I?”: Soul, spirit, genes, physical body, consciousness, etc. without seeing the connection.
The plant is not only the flower or the roots. The plant requires water to survive.

Every human being is living their own “reality” of “who am I?”and thereby, the answers that he will validate as “the truth” are the ones fitting that “reality.” Very convenient indeed.

Who am “I”? 🙂
Laughing at that question, is my “rational” answer.

Beyond fight or flight: Acceptance

When we perceive danger or a situation which brings a feeling of uneasiness, we could stay and fight. We need to “win,” we need to conquer the “enemy,” etc. On the other hand, if that situation is perceived as unsurmountable, then we need to “save face,” that is “flight.”

Our conditioning is heavily influenced by dualities: win-lose, fight-flight. This is the first aspect to observe, when making sense of our behavior. Why is that important? Because we are caught in a box of 2 possibilities, when there are many.

One of the heaviest conditioning there is in our society, is related with this duality of perceiving Life as the inner working of a computer: On-OFF, 0-1. In general, we see Life from this binary format. Duality. No wonder “our creation,” the classical computer works in the same way. We may need to switch our awareness to something like a “Quantum Computer,” where there could be more than just one choice, many possibilities.

Spirituality sees that ACCEPTANCE of “what is,” is indeed another way to meet Life.
This is not surrendering or an offshoot of “flying,” by slowly walking off like a dog who has been nagged by his owner. Acceptance is to be flexible in the moment to meet Life as it appears.

For example, every Tuesday I may eat spaghetti religiously. One Tuesday I ran out of it and couldn’t purchase it. Yes, I could eat something else instead, but that is not the type of acceptance that I am talking about.

Acceptance is to look with some sort of excitement at the opportunity for something different, that is the arrival of newness. Acceptance is an attitude of gratefulness for the new experience.

The above is something difficult to see when we are only caught up in our own stories, our own images that we want to protect.

For instance, Life sends a pandemia. The story is not just about human beings. Nature has the rare opportunity to rebuild itself. Caught up in our own stories in self-absorption, we cannot see the whole picture. So what Nature has to do with “me”? Nature is where WE live, what we breathe, Life itself.

The human story commonly shared is about lost jobs, lost lives, lost income, lost markets, lost GDP, and so forth. We do not see the unity of all. We do not perceive when we divide ourselves from everything else, that we create a duality between “us” and “them;” therefore, the survival of “them” depends on the extermination of “us.” We cannot see a sane balance of “us” and “them,” for our minds haven’t been conditioned to harmonize but to ‘win,’ to ‘conquer,’ to follow the “survival of the fittest” idea when paradoxically, the weakest of us are being killed through a virus (There is an element of human responsibility in every pandemia) and we want to protect them. Let us not go into the “morality” of that perspective. Let us see the facts. Animals, plants, the environment are the “weakest links, “younger brothers” compared to humans but the same moral direction to protect is not there, but to exploit.

Acceptance. That is the opportunity to end the stories of despair and anguish and look forward to newness, the opportunities.

There are different levels or interpretations of acceptance, but a deep acceptance will bring as a result what is known as a “detached observer.”
What Life “throws at us” is for our own inner development; thus, we may need to sharpen our ability to Observe, so we could assimilate Life experiences with acceptance rather than bitterness and opposition.
“We” cannot ‘win’ over Life. We are Life itself.

The levels of attachment

In society, we define attachment as “a feeling that binds one to a person, thing, cause, ideal, or the like; devotion; regard.” In psychology it is defined as “a deep and enduring emotional bond that connects one person to another across time and space.” Those definitions sound positive and desirable.

In spirituality, attachment has a different view. That “binding emotional feeling” could potentially be a trauma, when the receiver of such affection is no longer there or there is the danger that it may not be there anymore. Great emotional suffering is experienced by the unaware individual which could even affect his mental health.
There is nothing wrong with bonding with individuals or to have devotion to certain ideals or things as long as we remain stable, centered. Most will lose their stability when their object of attachment is not there anymore.
Spirituality observes the potential trauma of that experience and that is what this article will explore.

Life IS change. We know that intellectually. Practically, we may not.
What is attachment? In general, when an emotional need arises. This need has the power to be a trauma in our lives.
What is a trauma? When our beliefs, ideas and ideals are in conflict with what IS. That conflict is an internal rejection which is emotionally stored mostly in our subconscious, and giving us a view of Life with a biased perspective. In this way, the past, what happened IS still part of our present even though the past is gone.

We have attachments to ideas, beliefs, ideals. We have attachment to situations, circumstances. When someone close to us goes away, our circumstance will change. When we say that we are attached to someone, we are attached to the feeling of need being temporarily fulfilled by someone.
To be able to feel attachment in variable degrees of neediness, will allow us to feel it, which is very important to practically “know” attachment.

There is attachment to what we consider “self” and the sensations that this will bring. For instance, if I am an avid swimmer and I cannot swim for whatever reason, then the sensations of not being able to swim will be bothersome. If this need becomes emotional, then we may say that we are attached to swimming; but in reality, we are attached to the sensation that it brings. It is not the exercise itself bringing “addiction” but the sensation it leaves, which is very subjective.

Attachments will not allow us to become a witness of Life. Without witnessing Life, we cannot experience freedom.

How to deal with attachment?
In our society, attachments are expected and supported. They are “normal.” We may need to forget stereotypes or conditioned moral teachings to look and find attachments in our own lives. That is what takes more involvement from a seeker.
Very few will do that and recognize attachments as potential traumas.

Therefore, for the few who may be ready, here goes my “recipe:”
First and foremost, to OBSERVE that (whatever it is we find as attachment) in ourselves. To be able to see it there, without any masks or pretty words to hide it, without any judgment. Many times we may realize those after the fact, when we recall the experience after some time.
Second, to OBSERVE it in action. Life will bring a particular episode and we will react to it. Catch it there. It is important to FEEL it. Just to use words to make sense of it; will not allow us to truly see. Remember that the important item is how we FEEL in front of some Life episode. It is that feeling alone the one that brings the sensation of need, of being unable to be without. That is attachment.
Third and last, a deep feeling of the following fact of Life:

Life is change. Life is unpredictable. Life is temporary. Life is unexpected. Thus, it is impossible to possess something. Everything goes away. Do we see this as a fact?
Then it follows that everything; every experience, every person who crosses our path, every possession is borrowed from Life. The reality of impermanence is there, despite any social laws or rights which may bring us a sense of security.
Note that I am not inferring that a spiritual person must not possess things to avoid suffering. That is an infantile understanding which interestingly, many religious faiths will follow.

I am saying that while having things, experiences, circumstances, beliefs, ideas, etc. know that we are “borrowing” them. Life is leasing us something for a temporary time. That could be a wonderful wife/husband, a great job, our excellent health, etc. It is all “leased” to us for a temporary period. Those things are meant to eventually go away. We should keep that in mind, for it is a fact of Life. This is not meant to bring worry or despair. A tourist travels around. He is not meant to stay in a particular place.  The same is with us. The joy of being a tourist is the freedom to travel, to know and try new things and that means to stay in continuous movement, in change. Just like Life.  The important thing is to keep the stable center within.

With the understanding of the above, then we will pay attention to the intention of using the word “Mine.” In society we may need to use that word to deal with people, but know deep inside that we meant “leased,” “borrowed.”  This sense of FEELING how everything is borrowed, will open the door to the witness. The one who doesn’t need to choose in Life, for everything whether coming or going;  is meant to be appreciated as it IS. A witness is the ultimate way to appreciate Life.

Go left or go right. We will get to the same place eventually. Life is not a race. There is no prize or destination. It is a journey.
Therefore, appreciate the trip.
When attachment decreases, for sure our emotional stability increases.

Will resume writing on April 30th.  Enjoy! 🙂

To be a witness is all there is

Witness of Life. When we have the time to sit down and observe how Life moves, we may discover that it is completely unpredictable. It is in that realization, how we could come to terms with those past experiences which we made a trauma of, still lingering our subconscious. We cannot “prepare” for something unpredictable, but we can learn to accept what comes our way.

Like many, I have experienced very low times in my life. But those times went away, like everything else does in an unpredictable fashion. I am still here. I cannot predict how long it will be, thus; it makes sense to enjoy what “IS” for it will change.
Waves in the Ocean of “problems” come in different shapes and sizes. It is obvious. Expected. Making a trauma about a fact of Life will take away our ability to enjoy it and rather fear, will be in its place.
What to do? Learn to surf thoses waves. Learn to dive and come out alright on the other side. Most live in despair when they see one wave coming their way. What is required is a change in attitude. It is not enough to learn to survive, when enjoyment is the spice of Life.

Many times losing now, is winning in the long run. Death is not the end but the beginning. We are tourists in Life. We could try to control the route of the “bus of Life” which is taking us to different places, but then we will never relax and be open to experience different scenery. Destiny is the driver. The “bus” may have a flat tire or an engine failure and we could be stranded. That is part of the adventure. No matter how hard we try to control, we cannot. Everyone has to taste ups and downs.

Life experiences are valuable for we can understand anyone going through the same ones. That is how empathy appears, then compassion.

Compassion doesn’t appear because we “must put ourselves in someone’s shoes.” That is only an intellectual exercise. Compassion appears when we have experienced the experience with a particular feeling (we know what it is,) and become a witness of that. In other words, there is no emotionality, a trauma inside.
A fully digested experience, will definetely help a person to become “better” in Life, that is open to Life by trusting their destiny.

Ups and downs are a fact of Life. Then; we could understand that pain and pleasure are two sides of the same coin, and to attach ourselves to one side, will only bring the other side closer… and it will not be welcomed when it arrives. It will be a traumatic experience.

Many “spirtual” people have decided not to experience pleasure, so they don’t experience pain. That “theory” only works on paper. That is to rob ourselves from experiencing Life. That sort of repression brings its own traumas. At the end, it is not by avoiding how we “solve” Life “problems,” but by assimilating the complete experience.

We are in the world of duality. We have signed up to go through this tour and experience it.
We could have our own beliefs which could bring us comfort and make us feel good in hard times; but as we grow up in consciousness, we could be able to see “what is” and learn to focus on that which is ‘good’ and unique of every situation, even though the rest may appear as ‘bad.’
What is “good” about the current state of events in the world, we may wonder? Nature has the unprecedented chance to rebuild itself. That is great news for our future.

Every Life experience is needed as it is. We are here not to “change the world” or to “make a difference.” Those are childish beliefs to pamper a self-centered ego. We are here to witness.

A witness or a detached observer, begins by “fixing” his own traumas in Life.
There is no way that we could enjoy watching a TV program when we have preconceived notions on how the program should be, when we want to judge every scene and qualify it as “good or bad.” We are only wasting our precious time.

When we leave the heavy burden of trying to control life, so it can fit our expectations, needs and wants; a witness is born.
That one is ready to fully enjoy the experience of Life, for Life is meant to be enjoyed.

Inner Observation in virus lockdown times

Finding “good” in apparently “bad,” is one of the trademarks of a spiritual person. If we look at the symbol of “yin -yang,” (duality) we will see that one side whether black or white, has a little “eye” with opposite color. Therefore, we can “select” to focus on the positive side of an apparent negative situation.

The above is not a “trick” or a “method.” It is simply the recognition through observation of Life. Where we focus, our attention is. That is what becomes “real.”

A person changing through the process of self-realization without a doubt, has experienced a lockdown period in his own Life. It is necessary to process all the inner changes.
Thus, those who are ready to take advantage of this situation, will use time to be completely observant of his own mind.

The mind is very important, for that is the filter to watch and to interpret what we consider “reality.” Observe how the mind will introduce desires in unexpected ways. The mind is eager of constant movement. It wants to be continuously stimulated.

Observing means merely to watch as if we are watching a TV program. The minute we are able to do this without engaging our beliefs, judgments or emotional responses, then we are getting to know what Observation is.

The previous teaching was to change a “bad” thought with a “good” thought. Although that is typical material for a “best-seller;” we are not realizing that this practice only engages more the mind to make such change. The mind sees itself as thinking something “bad.” The mind judges that “it cannot be. I am good. I want good thoughts.” So, the mind changes by picking a thought and label that as “good.” In this exercise, we have given further nourishment to the needed stimulation of the mind.

As long as there is inner chattering, there cannot be observation. When we bypass the mind, we will know no-mind. However, this is not a goal to be achieved. It just happens.

The mind creates a “reality” which is not necessarily there. We need to recall that our focus will dictate what we perceive.

On the other hand, most individuals unaware of the above; are only concerned on distracting their minds. Nothing wrong with that. Just be AWARE that this is happening while it is happening. Many providers are streaming hours of entertainment to “help  others cope with stressful times.” Then, their minds will fantasize about the future on and off. The antenna of their minds will pick up the collective vibe of distress, uncertainty and nuisance of having to stay home. In turn that will give them a certain mood, which goes unperceived; so they may call that “my mood.” In extreme cases, a pill will be taken to be able to sleep and send the overworked mind to rest.

It is important to learn to observe in order to pick up the messages and the conditions of the outside which may affect the “inside.”

The mind could be our greatest friend or enemy. It is a tool and as such, we have the opportunity now when we could be out of our “normal” busy schedule, to learn from it.
Without a doubt, a step forward is when we clearly perceive that “I” am not the mind. The tool is not “me.” That is a fantastic Aha! moment.

The teachings of pandemic

We are all connected. One. Life is unpredictable. As the world’s human population increases, so the chances to hurt our delicate eco system.

It is interesting to witness how different approaches have been taken by affected countries in regards to the Covid-19.
Very few have taken the “sit and wait” approach. Their scientists believe that there is not much help that quarentine could do (how long is enough? could the virus reoccur after isolation?) even though the number of cases increase in their lands and so deaths. Others heavily hit by the virus, have mandatory quarentine for the population; whereas other countries with no deaths and relatively few cases, have mandatory quarentines as well. Testing methods for covid-19 are mostly used for the most evident cases at this time, which means that a person could have the virus and feel alright, but he may be contagious without knowing.

The bottom line is protection of population vs. protection of the economy. That is the political gamble there. For how long a country can stop to produce goods without being affected? There is another game on how some are taking advantage of the panic and declining macro financial situation, for their personal profit. But the biggest “spiritual teaching,” is to observe how panic will take over when the perspective of death knocking at our doors, is perceived as imminent.

The idea of losing all, even our lives doesn’t sink in well in our psyche. Panic is the consequence. Economic paralysis, panic buying over fears of not having enough to eat or to protect our lives, and overall tension is in the air. The media does a great job intensifying fears in the population.

The thought of “protecting my family and I” above anyone else is rampant. Clean the shelves of the store before someone else does it. It is that sort of consciousness, the one that only shows who we ARE.

Indeed, it is in distressed situations when our “happy” routine (the same old thing) is not; when we show our true colors.

This pandemic episode going on is a suitable scenario to learn a lot about ourselves, only if we are willing to OBSERVE.
The great majority is hooked on the TV, being fed by the same message of distress of the news.These individuals only repeat what they hear without further thought. We are so used to “fighting” with all the “enemies” to “win” the “war,” but yet there is nothing we can do with a virus: It has to come and go. That is their “normal” path. It starts slowly, it has a peak and goes away. Consider this, there is “natural selection”  related with fitness in Nature. This is true not only for animals but humans as well. This is the way of Life. It is not some moral standard, where humans are above all species. In general, we don’t  help ourselves to maintain a good immune system by living an artificial life style, away from Nature. The “cure” is our immune system.

Not even the almighty economy is able to survive to the tiny virus, for there is uncertainty on how things will move.
We wish we could have a “crystal ball” to see the future, so we can save ourselves and be safe, be “right.”

Discovering who we truly ARE, requires guts. It requires an extraordinary sensibility, intelligence. It is from that inner observation how a new being could be born.
In order to be at peace with a life of uncertainties, there is no future to muse over.  It is through that deep understanding how the mind could be at ease, for there is nothing to fantasize about.

Fear of the future. Fear of losing. Fear of not being there. That is panic. The mind in distress.
“Rationally,” “logically,” those fears will need to be faced one day by all of us.
Do we see that?