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Question about the mind, acceptance and trust

“… only if it was that easy to wait/observe and not act when your Mind is racing @ lightening speed… Isn’t observing and waiting for a change not a thought in itself?
What lesson is life teaching if someone does not even have basic necessities to survive, abused physically/mentally? – will be hard to develop acceptance and trust.
Love to see your response.”

If your shoelaces come undone, it is because it was done.

Thank you for your question for the common good.
If you make a knot while tying your shoelaces, sooner or later that knot will need to be dealt with. That is Life. There is a process to get there and a process to get out.
Who is the observer?
If it is the “I,” that is not an observer. That is a doer. That “I” is the one trying to figure things out through methods, beliefs and pressure from others, how to untie the knot.
There is an “I” and there is “no-I.”
The “I” is the one known by most. Who is waiting? The “I.” The “I” is observing from a self centered personality while separated from everything else.

“MY mind is racing at lightening speed. What is the method to stop it? Perhaps “I” should “observe it” and “wait” to see if that method works for ME… Hey, I just came up with a thought… It is “my” thought even though “I” did not willingly think about it…This change should be “natural,” I wonder why is not “natural” to Me yet?”

The above is one interpretation of what Ahnanda is trying to explain, but it is far from what Ahnanda means.

If we are only using our minds to make intellectual sense of this, we are wasting our time.
That is not “bad” at all, for it is part of our process. So even that misunderstanding is completely “good.”

How could I express “no-self” through English words structured to use “I,” “you,” “him,” “her” at every corner?
Your mind wants an answer to “resolve the problem” of experiencing the “misery” of “racing thoughts.” Right?
Ahnanda says: Open your heart, your feelings…
“But how?”
All I can share is my experience which is not a “method.” Go to Nature. Not once in awhile, but BE there for you are THAT. “There” your feelings will open up, your heart will breathe and your mind will calm itself “naturally.”
“OK. I will try that. I will spend a year in the wild…”
No my friend. If you are just going there because “you” want to achieve something, you may achieve many things in that experience, but not the “goal” of calming your mind.

If in your process you do not feel the need to be in Nature, if you force yourself to do it, just to achieve something like “peace of mind,” you will be sorely disappointed… but that is not “bad” either. It is part of your process. All is “good.”

The “I” wants to achieve. “No-I,” cannot exist there.

However, if there is a natural need in you to spend your time outdoors as much as possible, to observe Nature not because you want to achieve something for yourself, but just for the heck of it, just because you have infinite love for Nature… then, according to your process, you are naturally ready to experience what is like for the mind to slow down.
Do you see the process? It needs to be natural, it cannot be forced.
“But I want to achieve no-mind NOW!”
Can you force an unripe fruit to be ripe “now” just because you decided to “make effort” to be ripe, because you have the “goal” of going to “heaven” or another “objective” such as peace, happiness, joy, etc.? 🙂

Now, into your second question:
“What lesson is life teaching if some one does not even have basic necessities to survive, abused physically/mentally? – will be hard to develop acceptance and trust.”

Life lessons… are only lessons for the one who is aware. For the one who is not, their position in Life could be of suffering.
Is suffering “bad”? Any other way to dismantle the “ego” “naturally”?

Two things to keep “in mind”:
1. Our perception of someone’s suffering could be enhanced if we compare with them. “Look I can go to the toilet everyday… but those poor things do not even have toilet paper.”
I have seen those “poor things” smiling from the heart in their day-to-day life. That gift stopped, once they started comparing with “others.” This is not meant to say that social inequalities are OK. This is meant to say that our perception could be tinted with greater suffering than what is actually experienced by the one going through the experience in Life.

2. If you are going through some experience in Life, you are equipped to go through it. If “you” tied up your shoes, “you” must experience the process of untying them. The process is not the same for everyone.
Acceptance and Trust is needed for the one who has gone through the extreme of experiences of rejection and distrust. When your life is colored with distrust and rejection, then the process will shift, to arrive into trust and acceptance. The “I” will fight to keep things safe for “him” despite the imminent change. Trust is not something for the “I” to “develop,” it happens if the “I” allows it. If the “I” does not, there will be further suffering. See the game? 🙂

Someone who in your perspective has been abused mentally, physically and is living without the basics, may not necessarily experience distrust and rejection towards Life. Again, it depends on the process that this person is experiencing in Life, his “location.”
That “terrible” experience for you, may not be the drop that spills the water from the glass, for that person.
That is why, to feel for someone has a much greater accuracy than to think or analyze their “situation.”
Empathy is a feeling which will naturally tell you “how to act” without thinking about it. How someone became the personification of empathy in Life?
By having experienced its opposite… naturally…That process is not necessarily of a single Life time.
If you don’t have empathy naturally, then a method will be needed to make you believe that you “have it.” 🙂
All the best!

Question on changing behavior and changing consciousness

“I receive all your above mention topics through my email, some of the points are too deep for my understanding. But the last one about Suzy her dog her anger and consciousness made lots of sense to me,
Please let me know how to change our conscious in day to day behaviour it makes sense that through applying knowledge you change your behaviour temporary
Also I think I am trustee or instrument but that’s how far I go but the actual change in my feelings do not come also I know I have lots of negativity deep inside, which does not seem to move.”

Thank you for your question for the common good.

Ananda does not teach anything. Ananda merely shares.
Readers, who are able to see in these writings a reflection of their own experience, will understand.
They will see in words what they already know about.
That is all.
No ulterior motives. No promise of salvation. No religious sales pitch included.

Very happy to find out that one of the writings here made sense to you. How did it make sense to you?
Because you have experienced it.
You also found out that change of behavior is not the same as change of consciousness.
How do you know that?
Your own experience.

Now, you are asking me to “tell you how to change consciousness in day to day behavior”?

Obviously, you are asking that because it is not your experience yet, so all the other writings, which actually expressed views about your question, do not make sense to you yet.
See how it works? 🙂

Here I will share something that I have shared before, but this time it will be just for you:

It makes no sense to believe that the “I” can “fix” itself through the adoption of a particular method, for that can only change behavior.

It makes no sense to believe that there is a “good” “me” and a “bad” “me” inside and that Spirituality is about the “good” “me” changing, conquering the “bad” “me.”

If you do that, you will find repression and when you are repressed you will not feel happy and there will be a consequence experienced as a bodily disease, depression, lack of zest for Life, etc.

I am happy to read about your inner honesty.
You have discovered that your feelings do not change, your “negativity” does not change despite your beliefs.

Some may tell you: “Keep believing. It is just a matter of time.”
But you have discovered that consciousness does not change through beliefs.

Let me ask you this.
What would happen if you abandon all your beliefs about yourself?
What would happen if you abandon all the labels that you believe to be?

When you do that, you will be able to observe.
When you observe without thinking: “This is bad. I will be punished. How immoral of me to feel this way. Look all the negativity that I have. I feel bad.”

At that point, observation will happen. “You” will be a “detached observer.”
That is all. The rest will happen by itself.

Do you want a method? Something “new” to repress about you? Some “do not’s” to follow?

No… That is not needed at all.

Let me put it in another way:
This girl “Punky Brewster” shows up on TV. There is something about her that you like. You keep OBSERVING her and then, some of her characteristics magically appear in you. You start acting like Punky.
Did you decide to follow punky? Did you think: “punky is good. I better follow her”?

No. That happened naturally It was in tune with your consciousness. Life offered the opportunity. Obviously, if you observed someone else on TV, you may not have felt the same “chemistry.”

A particular consciousness gives you the opportunity to keep expanding what you are able to perceive. A particular consciousness has a timing, then it will go away unless you want to trap it through a dogmatic view of the world.

When you observe yourself is not about “observing thoughts.”
That is a waste of time.
Become aware of your feelings. Observe your anxiety, observe your anger, observe how they appear without labeling them. Just acknowledge their presence.

There is no need to change anything. You will have the necessary experiences in Life to balance the different energies/feelings that arrive. Trust Life without using a belief to tell you where is the “right place” to go.
Listen to your heart without the cloudiness of beliefs.

Anger is not “bad” neither “good.”
Anger when channeled in a proper way and in the right circumstance, will be helpful. There is no energy inside us, which could be labeled simply as “good or bad.”
It is a matter of sensing the balancing act in Life.

Balance in Life is not about rejecting some things and accepting others. That is repression.

To express anger is not something to be ashamed of.
To hurt someone with our anger will create a consequence that will be experienced by us. We will learn through that experience without the need to label ourselves through the eyes of a belief system. If we knew better, we wouldn’t hurt someone.
To repress our anger will only poison our being.

Please experiment with forgetting about all the things that you think that you “are.”
Those beliefs are creating barriers around you, which will not allow you to explore.
To explore is not “bad.” It is called “living Life.”

When we learn to observe our being, we will discover many things. Acknowledge them.

Learn to observe without further goals or objectives.
You are not observing to become an angel or whatever else you want to think or believe.

You are observing because you are. If you emit judgment, moral value etc. then you will find your beliefs. Once you find your beliefs, you can face them and observe how rejection appears, how contempt for other beliefs appear… basically you will find out how your “reality” is created in your head.

That inner honesty will give you the key for further progress, without looking for it.

May you inner honesty blossom! All the best to you.

Perfection and completion


When there is a realization that Life is about the experience of “experiences,” which are agents to transform our consciousness; then in that realization we could observe that Life does not have any objectives or goals; unless we assign those to Life.

If our perception of life could change at any time, if every individual has a perception, why are we so stubborn in our continuous creation of a goal, an objective for everyone to follow?
That is how “truth” as an objective arrives, and that is how “truthful paths” come into this picture.

Perhaps the above is not easily explained. Let me put it in another way:

Does your life have an objective, a goal? Do you have a “path to follow” which is an ideal?

Some intelligent individuals could advice you to have one. Our society demands that we have a Life objective. If you do not, religions will give you one through their multiple belief systems. If you don’t have one objective, most probably your consciousness will move into having one objective, path, goal, truth in Life.

Most probably Life will teach you that if you choose a path, a truth, an objective, you will still look for meaning, for fulfillment for the “ideal” is not “reality.” The “ideal” is just a perception. Thus, sooner or later you will be pathless, goal-less, etc. when you become disenchanted of ever climbing someplace, ever becoming something, ever doing things to get to the same place. Nowhere…. 🙂

You see, duality is interesting. Choose “yes” or “no” does not matter at the end of the road, for you will experience both anyhow. Paradoxically, it is that experience of both “sides of the rope” which will liberate you from duality, from embracing one side and rejecting the other; BUT… this is not intellectual stuff, you must EXPERIENCE it.

Dear readers, if you are able to understand me by the above paragraphs notwithstanding my limitations of language, you could discover many things for yourself.

Let me just share one.

Perfection is an ideal. The saint looks for perfection under the premise that “we are not perfect,” we are “sinners.”
Embrace perfection. Reject imperfection.

The ideal cannot be fulfilled. It is after all an ideal.

Life is complete. It is in that completion how we could observe its perfection.
We are Life itself. Are we not already that which we are looking for?

Perfection is not something to attain in the future. Perfection is now.
What feels like “lacking” is known as lack of completion. To be complete.
The experiences of Life will give us that completion.

When a person reaches the end of his life, there is completion. That completion cannot be compared with someone else. Some may live 10 years while others 99. That is not the point, Life gives completion of every role in Life.

When we live the “now” there is no “Perfection” to chase in our thoughts.
To hurry up to attain “Buddhahood” as some monks will pretend to do in a temple is of no consequence. With honesty, they do not know how to do it, neither their masters.

Do you know why I am so sure of that?
Because it happens automatically when there is completion of experiences in Life. No need to have that as an “objective.” It happens at different times.
It happens when you have gone through the “Yes” and equally through the “No” of experiences of Life, when you have gone through that duality. It does not happen because someone meditates 20 hours per day. Nevertheless, if someone wants to have the experience of meditating 20 hours per day, that is not “bad,” it is part of that person’s experience.. BUT, that does not mean, that “he has found the method.”

Dear readers, Life is very simple. Just enjoy it. Don’t take it as a “life or death” situation 🙂 for whatever is happening, it will go away. “You” will go away as well. Isn’t that beautiful? “You” will be out of this particular “role” in Life and move on. It is just a matter of time.
Shall I do something to speed that up? 🙂
Why would someone who is enjoying the ride, would like to do that?
Are you enjoying it?
Enjoy now …and continue enjoying the next “now.” Allow for your consciousness to change. No need to “do” anything, but to allow for it to happen. Beliefs, ideals, fears, preconceptions are not allowing for that consciousness to move on. Observe that.

Finally, here is the most transcendental Spiritual teaching that I have learned so far, which actually puts all the blah above into a nice summary: (I learned this sometime ago from reading about a Zen master, but it just recently sunk into my core.)

“When I eat… I eat. When I sleep… I sleep. When I play… I play. “

Easy to remember, easy to share. Not so easy to understand … and not so easy to “do.”
Perfect and complete.

The Rainbow of experiences in Life


In Life there are many experiences. Those experiences run through all the different “shades of colors” that we could imagine. To be experienced in Life means to have gone through all of them. It is through that experience how insight develops. All of those colors are “good” for to experience one means to naturally go into another.

Any person that we see at this point, is representing a particular color at this time. He may think that “his” color is the “truth,” but that color will need to change to keep on experiencing Life.

“Look at Robert… what a humble guy, he is!”
Believe me, he was a proud individual at one point in time through his different experiences in Life OR he will be a proud, ego centered guy.

That is what I mean when I say “shades of colors in Life.”

Religious minded people may not use the terms “shades of colors.” They will use: “Good and Bad.”
What is in between that “Good and Bad”?
“Normal.” The mob.
The ones who are neither saints nor sinners.
That labeling has done so much harm in our society for centuries.

Life = Shades of colors to experience, that is all.
If we understood the above analogy, we could see clearly that consciousness will change by itself as the shades of colors change through experiencing Life.
No one could be truly “good” without having experienced being “bad.”
Do we see that?
That is how a “saint” will look at anyone knowing that a particular shade of color at a particular time is not the “rainbow” of a person, but to appreciate the rainbow means to be able to perceives its capacity to display all colors.
That is the beauty of the rainbow.
On the other hand, for most people: “Red is good, Indigo is bad. Blue is immoral. Yellow is saintly.”

Without that experience, all we have left is to follow a particular “moral code” to make us believe that we are “being good.”
That is the dissonance between “being” and “doing.”
That is how external actions or protocols will trap the consciousness of an individual.
“If I don’t do these things, my peers/family/society/love ones/God/ etc./ will think low of me.”
That is when consciousness is secluded to live under a box, a cubicle with no windows or doors for the sake of “acting good.”

Experiences are not “good or bad.” Just different shades, different colors to feed our consciousness with material to be assimilated, processed and then changed into a new outlook in Life.

Anything that happens, any experience is meant to be “raw material” for further processing.
Knowing all of the above, how is it possible to believe that a method, a religious path or a philosophy or someone could change the consciousness of an individual?

But… a saint came up out of this religious path!
The particular experience of being in a particular religious path was the catalyst to bring the accumulated raw material from many life times, into fruition, but that does not mean that everyone is already at the same level of experiences or that everyone must do the same as this “saint” to become a “saint.” It does not mean that this particular religious path or method is “the method” for the “whole world.”

It does not work that way, because every single individual is living a particular “shade of color” which will need to transform by itself and not by the compulsion of following a method.

To go deeply into the above, not as a mental exercise or as an intellectual debate but by looking at our own life experiences, means to liberate ourselves from the cage of searching for a savior or “salvation.”

There is none. It was never needed.

That is why, Ananda only repeats endlessly: Enjoy your current experience.
It will change, but if you learn to enjoy them… then you will be enjoying Life as “it is” and that in itself is the catalyst for greater amplitude of mind, amplitude of consciousness; for enjoyment is about appreciation and as mentioned before, the way to expand our consciousness is through appreciation of the experiences brought to us by Life itself.

See the rainbow of every individual, not just the color being presented at one time. It is in that way how our lives could be a rainbow to be appreciated by the ones who are only aware of being just a color in Life.

Experiences in the “spirit” realm


We are not alone. There is more than the physical plane in “reality.” Nevertheless, for many individuals, their “reality” is only the physical plane, the 5 senses, logic and analysis.

Some individuals with experiences in the other planes of “reality” have labeled those realms as “subtle region,” “astral region,” “spirit world,” “dream world,” etc.

Those regions have their respective “inhabitants” as well.
There is a continuous relationship between the physical world and the subtle/spirit worlds.

The physical world could be labeled as the “doers.” The subtle/Spirit world as the “influencers.”

As we understand this relationship with greater depth, we could realize the limitations of the “I,” “me,” “free-will,” “predestination” concepts.

What about if what we “think” that we are “thinking” is not necessarily “our thought”?

Crazy, huh?
Anyone scared? 🙂

Lack of awareness is compelling. That is why, one of the main things to understand is to learn to observe.
There is no “center” of attention or “opinion” in observation.
From that “exercise,” we could realize many other things.

Whenever someone claims to have a “spiritual experience;” it is just that… an experience from a perspective in Life.
If we want to glorify that experience and call it “divine” or use any other label, that is our own interpretation.

In my own experience, I had some of these “spiritual experiences” and still have them. However, the interpretation that I used to give to those, has changed as my consciousness has changed.

Remember the time when you flew in an airplane for the first time? To talk about that experience was marvelous. So great that perhaps we had lots of enthusiasm… If someone asked: What does it feel to fly? Ahh! That was the opportunity to “teach them” and to advertise our experience. Perhaps we could gain a follower in the “fly now” club!
If this sounds like the way most religious beliefs are, it is just a coincidence. ☺

If those experiences are separated by time, then that is the “carrot” the donkey needs to get out of the mundane, the trivial “same ol’ thing,” and feel “special.”

Those experiences add newness to our lives. Those experiences may be different from the majority; they have a meaning; they may be beautiful but… those experiences are unable to change our consciousness.

That is how, someone who encounters a subtle being, could label him with many names, which are part of his learned tradition: Angel, God, Demon, etc.

What is important to understand is that any experience with subtle beings is meant for a purpose in our life journey. These experiences will appear when necessary. There is no need to look for them. They just happen.
Some have experienced “rock climbing” I have not. Shall I suffer because of that, when there is lots of things to experience in Life?

One more thing. Those experiences are not meant to be “followed by everyone.” These are personal experiences.

When we understand that everyone has a different perspective of Life, all experiences are never equal.
As we become prepared through an openness of our consciousness, we will experience what is necessary to continue on.

That is the guarantee that Life has for everyone of us.

That is how, “spirituality” cannot be separated from Life.
Some religions and philosophies pretend to make that separation, but that is fictitious, artificial and… “unreal.”

Life is a continuous. “Spirituality” is to be in Life, not outside of it in a golden box of regulations and beliefs.

The “spirit world” is there. It is not “better” nor worse than “this” world, just different.
We are “here” but at the same time, we are all in this… together. Paradoxical, huh?

Consciousness is the bottom line


To understand (non intellectual) the depth of that “I” in our everyday Life is to regain awareness and to experience a different consciousness.

The classical example is about the individual who “renounces” the worldly power, wealth, name and fame to embrace the “divine” Heaven, God and Angel mind set.

From the viewpoint of consciousness alone, it is the same consciousness just deferred to a seemingly different goal, but it is all about the permanence of the “I,” in this Life and “after” this Life.

That consciousness is still full of “I.”

Let us say that this individual joins a religious group due to an “out of the world” experience which makes him feel “special” and a “chosen one” (more “I” ) or for whatever “reason” we could think of.

This individual full of “I” will use the “office mentality” paradigm (That is what he has been taught) to climb up into the religious setting, for a position that will be well regarded by his peers. Rather than be called “Doctor,” he may be called “Great soul.” Eventually, becoming a dedicated “follower” will bear its fruits in some “benefits” in this Life.

Let us say that this individual for whatever “reasons” later on decides to leave that setting.

Let us observe that the state of consciousness of this individual is still the same. The sense of guilt of doing something “wrong” will be experienced to the same extent and intensity as his previous dedication to that religion.

If the ego of that individual was hurt in his religious experience, then obviously rage and hate will be the response as a reaction.

A change of consciousness was needed to “get in.”
A change of consciousness is needed to “get out.”

Do we understand why to be secluded in a box of dogmas becomes important for a religion?

Because consciousness changes all by itself, through the assimilation of Life experiences.

Why is that?
Because Life is change. We are not different than Life. The static “I” is truly one of the biggest illusions.

This example used for a religion, could be used for many things in Life.
To belong to a political party or to show adherence to a particular cause, etc. All of those require for the individual to commit to a “box of do and do not’s.”

Ananda recalls his years in high school.
No… Ananda actually, did not go to high school. Do we see that? Isn’t this paradoxical?
Ananda does not have the same state of consciousness as the guy who experienced “high school.”
Does Ananda have a desire to experience those years again?
No. Ananda’s consciousness now does not fit that experience anymore.

Many readers may be reading these things just to have further “reasons” to get out of a certain condition in their lives.
That could be a religion; that could be something else.

For whatever you “decide” to do, I’d like you to be aware that to cheat yourself may not be “desirable.” If “reasons” got you “In.” Reasons will not get you “out.”
Consciousness will. Awareness. It is automatic when the time arrives.
Nothing is static in Life. You are not different than Life.
What you believe to be “you” is what is holding “you” back.

Consciousness cannot be changed at will. The “I” wanting to change “my” consciousness is an illusion.
Just allow for the experiences of your Life to be the teacher. Be open to that possibility.

There is no doubt that the strength of that “I” is the one not allowing for change to occur, even when the heart calls for it, even if our feelings are hungry for newness.

“The world will get into a new state of consciousness.”
Yes. But man and his teachings are not causing it.
Do we see that?

Have you heard of “Crystal children”?
They are not “made.” They are born like that.
When we realize that things manifest according to time and according to our readiness, then there is no point in rushing for a fruit in a tree to “make it” ripe quickly.
Just enjoy the moment, enjoy what Life brings. That episode will change if that “I” allows it.
Balance, harmony with “what is” by opening up that closed door of the “I.”

As Guru Porky pig said: “That’s all folks!.” 🙂

The atheist and the theist: The opposites that attract

An atheist was invited by his friend to a wedding ceremony to be held at a church.

The atheist entered and started looking at the decoration: Images of saints and Jesus crucified in a cross. The atheist was surprised by the atmosphere of peace that he felt in that wide room.

All of the sudden, he saw a white light which almost blinded him but increased his peace and made him feel a special bliss that he has never felt before.

The atheist was surprised after the experience and told his friend about it.

His friend said: “That is God showing you that he exists.” The priest knew about that experience of the atheist and congratulated him profusely. It was a miracle.
The atheist had experienced God by popular interpretation, therefore; he decided to convert himself into a Christian and from that point on, he strongly believed in God and followed his Godly book; the Bible.
The priest used this singular story to support his beliefs and the beliefs of those who believed in him. 🙂

The above story may have happened to many of us. Through an extraordinary experience, we thought that God has “chosen us.” After all, not too many folks experience that type of experience.
“I am special,” we thought.

Notice how the interpretation of an experience resulted in the change of consciousness of the atheist.
That which he denied, all of the sudden was completely embraced to the same extreme as his denial.

That is the story of St. Paul as well as the story of many “believers.”

What could have happened if that “special” experience was felt in a Muslim mosque? Or what about a Hindu temple?
Obviously, “God” automatically would have acquired those colors.

What is important to observe is not that the atheist have found God.
Observe how his consciousness has changed into the opposite side.
Observe how an interpretation has validated his beliefs.
Observe how general acceptance has determined that new “reality.”

Eventually, that “experience” becomes the hook into becoming a believer.
The label of “atheist” will change into “theist.”

That change is very superficial. The former atheist may follow rituals, he may confess his sins and pray to God all he wants, but his consciousness will be stuck in that new location, for a dogma will be created in his mind.

He found the “One.” The “One” who was denied.

Nevertheless, that may be the starting point in his “spiritual career.”

Unless this person allows for his consciousness to be open to further experiences, he will not be able to change anymore.
In his mind, he has found security and support from a group. He has “arrived.”
However, in his heart there will be the longing of needing something else.

Why? Is finding God or a belief in God not enough?
No… unless he wants to believe it is.
Once the belief is confronted and discovered, he may move into the next step.

What is it?
He will need to find himself.

To find the “One” is not enough until we become “One.”
That “knowing” is not theory. It is not something to recite and to “tell others.”

Being (labeling) an “atheist” or a “theist” is of no consequence unless we believe that to be the case. Lost into that duality, we could get “busy” by “doing things” such as proselytizing, supporting the faith, doing all rituals, etc. or going against it in a “hate” campaign. More duality…Same consciousness.

When those 2 words are forgotten, then we could be away from labels and perhaps discover that we are not those labels that we used to believe we were…
At that point, the search truly starts…
The “special” experience is meant to be enjoyed. It is the point for a change. It is not meant to be interpreted.