Thank you for your question.
Your Drama is perfect. It is for you. Don’t think that you have to deny your family and work to be with God. That is just an idea which may work for some but no for others.
Spiritual efforts to maintain clarity of mind despite the situation is “true spirituality.” If you are dependent on others; what others tell you, that means that you do not have what it takes to discover your own path.
Trust life. Give yourself time for meditation, explore the self in this way. That is all what is needed. Let changes happen gradually. Improve your diet, provide the environment for your family to grow and prosper but you don’t have to provide for their whims and fantasies.
Don’t think that having greater free time means that you can “do more service,” or become “better” spiritually. That is a myth.
It is just about feeling the real self. Nothing more than that. If you could realize the self while in your small shop, that would be it. Nothing complicated, nothing exotic, nothing that requires money, nor social status nor a religion… not even “time”….just your complete awareness.
You can use your experience with God to guide you. Because you have experienced, you have a better idea on how to get there.