Thoughts bring the sense of separation, individuality.
Feelings bring the sense of unity with all as an expression of the inner being.
When we observe the one who produces those feelings, we discover a center of consciousness; we could discover bliss for the first time.
When we look at Nature and when thinking is over, the consciousness of being there observing arises. That is the self without a personality.
During meditation when the observer observes the observer, feels the observer, peace and bliss could arrive. That bliss is not there all the time due to our own “doubts.” That is, that personality built around it with all its hang ups, repressions, moral standards, traditions, traumas and sufferings.
That baggage is not allowing us to be in touch with that peace and bliss which we are.
We are “that” which we are looking for. 🙂
In this consciousness there could be that sense of separation again, for it will be the first time when looking inwards will make sense. “Inwards vs. Outwards.”
There is no “other” thing needed to bring life to our lives. It is right there in us.
Tapping this consciousness means to see everything as a “game.” There will not be a need to “acquire” something to bring value to ourselves. Here is when the perception of the body as a colorful paper, wrapping the candy is known without any other practices, it comes naturally. There is no need to deny the paper wrapping and to avoid it, but merely to acknowledge its beauty as a paper wrapping.
It is in this state when loneliness becomes something from the past, for we are content with our own existence but at the same time happy to share “that” with “others.”
Balance and harmony occurs when there is inner fulfillment. To be conscious of our own consciousness becomes the “thing” to observe.
From our physical movements, we could switch to observing our thoughts and feelings and from that the observer, the being. It is in that consciousness when we could understand the words of “being created to God’s image.”
Before that, it was a romantic moment of love or a thought. Now is “me” being equal to “God,” but without those words to separate; then there is “sameness,” “equality.” As consciousness increases, words do not do a good job in describing the experience.
There is a world to observe and to understand in the inner world. From this vision the game of union and separation is a manifestation of duality, the game of life.
The understanding and experience of the other types of consciousness will give a person automatic openness, receptiveness, open-mindedness, tolerance and empathy, all of that without “making effort.”
🙂 It is effortless.
However, it seems that there is more to it, which hasn’t been experienced by Avyakt7. That is what Buddhism calls “emptiness.”
Emptiness of what?
Emptiness of individuality; that is back to the whole, back to the totality, to the “movie of life.”
Wholesomeness. The ultimate unity. Communion.
The observer separates itself from what is being observed, just to recognize that what is being observed is the extent of the observer.
Plainly, life is the movie of a dog chasing its own tail. In one state of consciousness, the dog believes to be separated from its tail.
Until the dog bites its own tail, after making so much “effort” to grab it… Ouch! 😦
Then the dog will wake up with a new state of consciousness.
The dog is one with his tail. 🙂
When there is no dog, there is no tail.
But “there is” something which is neither the dog nor the tail.
There is life, consciousness, existence. That is all.
The word “self” is meaningless for those who have not experienced it.
For the “normal” individual, the self is the body and the distinction represented by this body in relationship with everything else.
A name such as “Paul,” is a distinction when that name represents the label of a body. There is an inner description which creates our psychological view of ourselves based on previous experiences, and the description made by others which is determined by the type of relationship we could be in. For example, the “idea” that Paul’s parents have about Paul, is different from the preconception that someone else at work may have about Paul. Then there is the belief that Paul has about himself.
The result is that all of these interactions create a fragmentation in the personality (when we are not aware of them) different faces and attitudes to “act” upon.
We need to keep in mind that our past experiences create a set of complexes which will be modified according to the role that we need to play with others. This may translate into psychological suffering.
For example, the hierarchical view of ourselves in reference with others will change.
At work, Paul may be a supervisor. At home, Paul may be a husband who cannot use the same supervisory skills with his wife. At church, Paul is just a simple follower not a supervisor.
When we do not have the vision to accommodate according to the place and circumstance, we become “misfits,” problems for others. Nevertheless, to comply and follow with the “hierarchy” of things, brings fragmentation in our self.
It is a “catch 22” type of situation.
That is why it becomes very important to break away from these mind schemas, to be free from them. That requires someone who is not “normal.” 😉
Is it possible to become a “tabula rasa,” that is “blank being” from those diverse “personalities”?
Just like a 3-year-old baby?
When we sit for meditation, a particular mind-set will be there at the beginning. To be aware of this means to let go of that mind-set. To count your breathing up to 10 and then go back to 1 again is a good practice to get acquainted with concentration of the mind and inner awareness. Our breathing is automatic. It does not depend in a particular effort coming from the self; thus, it is helpful to experience that which is beyond the “normal” range of self.
The thought of “counting until 10” needs to go away as well as we progress. Then, we will find ourselves in a state free from thoughts but totally aware.
This is the experience.
It takes time to realize the different subtle thoughts which may appear. Their intensity will vary as well as their duration.
The length of this experience will increase as we let go of the “normal” self.
Some may call that “silence.” It is the “space” between thoughts. However, some may not experience any space between thoughts.
But, there is the experience of thinking and the absence of that. Some call that absence of thinking “emptiness.” The words differ but they are only fingers pointing to the experience.
In that experience there will not be a need to create a “mental image” about us with thoughts about “us,” for the experience of being free from thoughts is peaceful, relaxing, enjoyable even blissful and our awareness will become sharper. That experience takes away the “need” to think.
In this experience is how we start the process of peeling off the “old normal self” and its complexes, dreams, desires and such.
We will see those things appearing in the screen of our minds.
That is the time when observation could be experienced, and the origin of that observation is the “true” self unencumbered by thoughts, emotions and past hang ups.
This description is not a “recipe,” it is merely a limited experience. There may be different ways to peel the “layers of the onion,” the self. 🙂
When we let go of the “normal” self, we find the “real” self. That finding is one path to many other experiences of freedom of the self…from the self. 🙂