“I would appreciate if you could share some insights with regards to choosing a vocation or how to earn one’s livelihood. Though you don’t entertain personal questions ,will share my personal situation to give you a context.
I am a 32 year old working in the Indian IT industry for 7 years,have done my engineering and MBA degrees but somehow of late “office work” just doesn’t stimulate me.This has been happening for 2-3 years,almost feel repelled regularly.Though its a state of mind and it goes away and its fine for few days but then it again keeps returning regularly.Just sitting in front of a computer whole day is just too much to take for me at times.I understand we all go through different emotions always but this desire to break out of this keeps coming back.But the irony is I have no idea what I want to do instead.If I get some free time I kind of distract myself but not work sincerely enough on finding about what truly I desire and work towards it,lack the discipline to do it consistently.Somewhere feel I am not following my ‘ highest joy’…don’t know if that’s possible even.
Not sure if my question made much sense and is different from the regular spiritual/philosophical thing, but if you are able to relate to it please do share your experience.”
Thank you for your question. Your question may fit the situation of many and I have experienced something similar, thus; I will answer it.
The question you ask is not easy to respond if you are looking at it from a conditioned perspective that is the “mass” belief. If your perspective is driven by “your instincts,” “your gut feeling,” “your intuition,” etc. Your question does not need to be answered as you know the answer.
Therefore, that is your “choice” at this point, but that can change in the future. Let me explain:
Like you, at one point in my career I wasn’t feeling fulfilled in the “office world,” even though the pay and the “status” were pretty good. I decided to look for another well-paying job in the IT industry. But Life had a different plan for “me.” I was let go. I wasn’t able to find a job to match “my standards” even though I tried pretty hard.
Thus I lived with my savings for the next 4 years. I found work as a “swimming pool cleaner” to supplement my savings as I live in Florida- USA.
If we believe in the idea of security and “social status” that the mind has bought into; my experience could be traumatic. It was at the time. Now, I see something entirely different.
Why did pool cleaning interested me? That was the time to experience “ Do what you love to do.” I love physical work/exercise outdoors. I wanted to walk barefooted in the grass and get plenty of sunshine, be in the water and feel the weather’s change in my skin. Also, I was mysteriously attracted to the blue color of a swimming pool. From that, I went into bodywork full time, and learned about energy work, the art of relaxation and the power of touch. My days in the IT industry seemed over, but… I am back in the IT industry with a job similar to the one I was let go, 12 years ago… but now as a “different person.”
What I AM “now” is the sum of that journey. If I am to think about retirement funds, the house, the luxury vehicle “I lost” during that time, what I experienced may have no meaning. It was about the “spiritual journey” into BEING someone different, for that I needed to let go of the conditioning by experiencing my fears.
Life is just full of experiences which we may label as surprises, good luck, bad day, punishment from God, being born under a lucky star, etc.
We get caught up with labels, but those are completely meaningless in the “bigger picture.”
Life is playing a song for you. You could stress yourself by trying to guess which is the next note that will be played in the song and “make the right decision;” or you could just be open to the tune as it develops. At the end of the day, a song is a song whether you spend your time trying to guess the next note “standing by the wall” or whether you just flow with the tune and “get down on it.” What is the difference then?
Your state of BEING.
If you don’t know what you want to do, you will find out. Things that you may not even consider when you have the safety of your current job, may be potential candidates.
You may “choose” now, but Life may have other plans for you, later on; therefore, here is my 10 cents sharing of my experience:
“Your choice” is not important. Go left or go right…It is not about that. Just “get down on it” to whatever tune Life is playing. You can dance.
Expression in Life is not a matter of “choice.” 🙂
A reader sent a question about “work skills” to be used at work. That question sparked the following article.
Spiritually speaking, a work place is like entering in a jungle.
In the jungle there are many different animals. Those animals have different hierarchies, needs, understanding and “corporate culture.”
A person understanding spiritual laws, will look at that scenario from the “big picture” in order to be harmonious. Harmony is the most important “skill” that someone could bring.
Your experience in a particular skill is good. You can type plenty of words per minute; that is great… but those skills are not enough to live in harmony.
There you have the monkey: Joking around, doing lip service whenever there is a chance. You have the Giraffe, extending its long neck to find out the whereabouts of everyone. There you have the tigress, expressing her raw power through bossiness.
You have the lion; who supposedly is the King of the jungle, but in the “corporate reality” may be just a figurehead. The Elephant may do the work of telling everyone what to do. His sheer size could scare other employees even though; his title is of an “assistant of the Lion.”
Every jungle has its own animals. We need to recognize that environment beyond the work titles and “official” ways.
For example, you may want to help a wounded deer, not realizing that a Cheetah may have done “work.” That deer was going to be the Cheetah’s meal! If you try to be “helpful,” you may gain an adversary. We shouldn’t assume things but always look for firm territory to step on; otherwise, if we are not careful, we may step on a snake or we may step on quick sand! 😦
Email is a good way to land in firm territory whenever there is a dispute. Evidence is always good to have.
All animals in the jungle make different noises. Our own noise should harmonize as much as possible.
Every jungle has a game to play, get to know it and play it well. 🙂
We need to learn to be small kittens so we could enjoy a good atmosphere around us. We need to be “big tigers” as well, by being intelligent, clever and by saving our energy as much as possible. Act only when necessary. Wait and watch the game.
Blend in, be part of it, play the game, enjoy it and at the same time… be yourself! 🙂
Thank you for your good question!
According to Gyan, this is a movie. It is called the “Drama.” Whenever there is ego “popping up” we will inflict pain upon ourselves.
How? By talking to ourselves that what is happening we do not deserve it or the opposite, that I am “not good.” Ego thrives in its own drama made of thoughts. At any rate there is no acceptance of what is going on now and even though, we have the intellectual understanding that “everything is beneficial” we still doubt it and even we inflict pain upon ourselves through waste thoughts.
Accept that there was a mistake, learn from it and move on. To settle this karmic account depends solely on yourself. Your boss can say anything he wants, but that shouldn’t matter at the end of the day. It is just a job. It is a paycheck for you and nothing else.
When you have spirituality and spiritual knowledge, our priorities will change. If things are not suitable for you to stay in that environment, make the steps to leave and get another job. It is not worth to stay there and with that experience, you could offer your services someplace else and start from “scratch.”
We make mistakes. It is part of the experience of living. If we have not learned from them, we will repeat the “story.” There is no point on feeling guilty or “hating ourselves” for something that will repeat again in 5000 years… Think about it!
Learn and move your position from that pain quickly, that is have inner flexibility to look at things from another angle; the one which will allow you to grow by becoming aware of that ego.
“brother, if a person is introvert not being social much…is limited in his student life. he has a bigger ambition, bigger dream as he not shows up in general. then suddenly one day he is introduced to gyan…getting advice and order to remain introvert. in the process his force of ambition which has become a much big plant as he didnt used it earlier…is much higher than the normal. to be more clear suppose one was spiritual from the beginning, so he got the vibes from others that “tech” is not for you. he soon felt the vibes of yes something lacking…now he want to go even ahead of normal..but what sould be the ambition? aim? why he should do it now? (as gyan explains truth does not need to be proved) …but still the “tech” part of him is not the truth. what should be his approach to make it truth not in terms of proving but to fill the space.”
Thank you for your question!
Will try to follow your question the best I can. There are some things which may need to be clarified.
Being “introverted” in Spirituality does not have the same meaning as being “introverted” in life; that is being “shy.” Spiritual “introversion” means to clear the mind from emitting “noise.” That inner chatter. Those multiple personalities talking to “us,” so we can listen the “heart” rather than just others.
As mentioned before, “doing” is not the main goal for a spiritual awake person. It is “being.” In that sense many will “do” according to their level of awareness. Many times we are happy to listen to others, but we seldom listen to ourselves. Knowing is in that, once the inner “noise” is gone.
An ambition is a desire. Some may have this ambition to be “someone.” You can take the time and resources that life has given you to pursue that. Many find that once they reach those “goals” they are ready for something else, so their lives are a constant “hop” from goal to goal. They may say that their satisfaction is to go from goal to goal, that is jumping from one place into another.
For others, that is meaningless, for at the spiritual level we realize the importance of this time and to be awaken.
Therefore, that is the decision that this person in your example will need to make.
Our primary purpose usually is to find meaning in life. That can happen at the highest level once self realization is experienced. Our secondary purpose is the “doing,” the job, the work, etc. Once we understand this priority, things will fall into place by themselves.