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Musings on a Sunday morning.


Yesterday, I was with a group of “seekers” sharing in a lovely setting: A park overlooking a lively river.
All individuals from all walks of Life, beliefs and consciousness show up to those meetings. All are heard. It is a great setting to learn about consciousness.

The person leading the conversation read 2 excerpts, one of them from a Deepak Chopra’s book, which mentioned: “Change your thinking to change your Life.”
The other book was the “Hua Hu Ching” attributed to Lao Tzu, it went something like: “There is nothing to teach: no religion, no science, no information which will lead your mind back to oneness. Always the integral way is beyond words and beyond mind. Simply be aware of the oneness of things.”

One of the participants said: “Those teachings are contradictory.”
Without a doubt, that individual has a sharp intellect.

In which way are those teachings contradictory?
Obviously, Chopra’s is about the “I” changing things around: Thoughts, actions, beliefs, attitudes. That “I” is a little changing devil… 🙂 It is the world of the “doer.”
The “Hua Hu Ching” is about observation, awareness, letting the mind go away…
“No-I.” Being.

Both teachings will be beneficial according to the consciousness of the individual.
Which one is “true”?
Both and none.
Paradoxical, right?

“I” can change my world. “I” can change my Life. “I” can change my thoughts. “I” can go to heaven. “I” am a sinner. “I” am pure. “I” am a son of God, etc.
Most religions, philosophies and scientific “evidence” points out to the fact of an “I” always busy “doing” things, having “control” over destiny…

For those individuals, Chopra’s and other Self-help guru’s teachings will be great. Many “I’s” together create a religion, which in turn holds the “truth.”

On the other hand, the “No-I” is based on awareness without a specific center, observation. That observation in itself is the “doing.”
Because observation “IS,” there is no morality needed, as in for example, “that action is bad. Don’t do it.” “No-I” is not interested in finding the indisputable “truth” when it can appreciate the different consciousness and perceptions.

A person only aware of the “I,” full of “I” could say: “But …just observation will not change anything… “I” want change!” That is the same person who needs a God to believe in, or a moral code to dictate what is “right or wrong.”
That is the same person that will utter: “Ego is bad. I have to conquer it.” Not realizing that this “I,” this ego cannot conquer itself.

What I learned in that gathering was interesting. Most individuals are incapable of self-observation.

Someone asked: “What is the origin of desires? What do you all “THINK”?
Everyone gave his or her “thought.”
For God’s sake, Can you look at “you” for just a bit and talk about “your” experience?
Why is that so hard?

“According to so and so, Ph.D the origin of desires is “this.” Guru XYZ says in his great book, “Tomorrow is another day” that desires are not “bad.” Have you read his book?
Isn’t that a fascinating work? “I” get something new every time “I” read it.”
(That is obvious, because “you” are never the same.)

Please….Look at your desire. Look deeper, why is it there?
Could it ever be a desire without an “I”?
“Oh…. I see, is the “I” ….”

Maybe. Maybe not. Let us keep looking. Isn’t that “I” a separation from “what is”?
Are the circumstances, the settings different than “you” since “you” are in those, part of those? Can you exist without circumstances and settings?

“Don’t get that complex with me. Make it simple. Spirituality is very simple. Is desire good or bad?”

🙂 All right. Change your “self.” Transform your self. Self-Transformation… Do it. Change your thoughts. Change your actions. Change your attitude. Change your feelings. What is currently “bad” change into “good.” Connect with God. He can help you. Need extra encouragement? If you fail you will be punished for ever…
Is that simple enough? 🙂

“What book do you recommend I read to improve myself?”
Any book full of “I.” Any book full of God. Any book full of salvation.

Observation. Awareness. That is all.

The minute we could understand that the “I” trying to change himself is a complete illusion, that is the minute when we understand the difference between behavior and consciousness.

When the “I” changes his behavior to appear “saintly,” let me assure you that unless there is a change in consciousness, that “ change” is only in essence a repressed “saint.”

Can the “I” change his consciousness?
Can God change the consciousness of the “I”?

Here a “secret”: The “I” does not exist. Consciousness does. 🙂

“That is not true! …I am this body/soul/mind/whatever/…”
You “are.” That is all. At night when you sleep deeply: Are “you” there?
Yes? Where? Do you need a belief to help you answer the question?
There is no “being” at that time.
Can you “be” if there is no consciousness?

“Your” perception is due to “your” consciousness. “Your” actions will be according to that perception.

When consciousness is allowed to change naturally, so our perceptions will change.

“But… “I” am supposed to stick with my moral standards, with my beliefs and with my ideas and be consistent every time no matter what.”
Dear, that is a human invention.

Consciousness. Some call it “Tao,” others the “Drama.” Consciousness is the script to be performed by the actors, the “instruments” of the stage of Life.
Void of all morality, it is “what is.”
Void of name, it produces all labels.
Void of separation, it arranges for it.

Consciousness is not a religion. It is not a belief. It is what brings all sentient beings together. It cannot be destroyed.
Some call that God, others destiny.

Lost in names, the “I” will create religions and philosophies to separate people.
The “I” lost in itself will experience the suffering of never being fulfilled.
The “I” looking to survive will look into “enlightenment,” or to “become like God.”

Observe. Become aware… and enjoy the game…

Quoting when there is not knowing


The “spiritual” seeker looking for pretty quotes to gain a particular viewpoint of life, is only feeding his intellectual mind.

That mind creates the squares, the straight lines and the triangles, which do not exist in Nature.

Intellectual life is not an “illusion,” for it is very real for most; but it is a world created by common agreement.

Living with concepts of what is “beneficial or not,” our lives turn into fear to experience life as it is.

The “I” is born as the center of that perceived benefit.
The “I” will be or do or have something if that is perceived as beneficial.

Therefore, our perception of what is beneficial is important. That perception will drive our lives.

“That job is more beneficial for me,” brings the same feeling, as “Heaven is beneficial for me.”

Notice that to build our lives with keywords and ideas or definitions is but to taste a drop of water to quench our thirst for knowing.
That knowing implies drinking water, experiencing not talking about it.

When we drop the security of keywords, ideas, beliefs and philosophies; we discover another world which is indefinable, ever-expanding and with many possibilities.

The price of being comfortable in the realm of ideas, thoughts and beliefs is to live in a golden jail unable to fly.

To overcome our own fears means to open up to life. The greater the fear, the greater is the presence of that “I.”

Embracing fear means to be fear. That experience will show us the one who is fearing. That is the one who wants to “benefit” in life.
It is the “I.”

To know that “I” is to be enlightened. Just to talk about it, is self-deception.

To know the “I” is not the final chapter for there is no – I.
But for the “I” to experience “no-I,” dying from the known becomes necessary.

Everything we know becomes useless when it is time to become someone else.

Being someone else is needed to see that who we were.
Thus, the paradox is that to know about the “I” is the window to escape from the “I” but intellectually, the one who escapes is still the “I” thinking to be someone else.

Thus, change happens imperceptibly, little by little as to not leave any footsteps of that.

The moment we realize that we are changing, is the moment when our past becomes the present and change becomes no-change.

To live is to realize change but not the one who is changing.

Speaking my mind

Can I speak my mind?
look at the sky and see the stars standing by
that void space in between is what I have inside
ever aimlessly in search for a bit of sunshine

Breathing is mechanical just like sneezing
thinking is compulsory, somehow as eating
but feeling is my life without doubt
it is my compass showing me the route

Trapped in math, science and accounting
the world condemns me to a slow drowning
computers, taxes and great business deals
starve me from nourishing spiritual meals

Poetry, philosophy and dancing are truly enlightenment
but in this world of research, facts and opinions
to feel and muse free without earning
is left for evil creatures equal to vermin

Play is for children
war, for grown ups
what is the sense of living
if life is already made up?

Do you have time for such thinking?
or do you prefer drinking?
how about if we just tune out
and forget about unsettling doubts?