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Decondition to experience fullness in Life.

Historically, the emphasis of religions, moralists, philosophies and psychologists; have been to correct human beings from all flaws, sins, degraded ways, etc. in order for him to fit in as a “normal” individual in society or a particular system.

Basically, Man is sick and needs to become well again. So, here are the steps to regain health…. Some will put god as the medicine, others “good actions,” others will emphasize sacrifice for mankind, others will call for “love,” as the savior and others… will believe in the power of researched therapy.

The analytical mind will search for those things which are believed to be incorrect, deviant, aberrant, etc. and will pursue the avoidance of those things at all costs. That is the practical medicine, the approach.
Fear is the key factor to make that “change” for there are penalties in this Life and the afterlife for indulging in such “sins.”

When moralists hear about Jesus, Gautama Buddha, Mahavira or the story of any self-realized individual, the aim to copy them appears.

Jesus was labeled as being “indigent;” therefore, that means that “spiritual people” cannot be rich. Buddha was labeled as “vegetarian” (although there is a discussion on this within followers) thus, to eat meat became a sin…The list went on thanks to the interpretation of the dualistic “black or white” mind of followers and moralists who lacked the experience of a self-realized individual.

Through a “black or white” approach it is easy to figure out what is “good” and what is “bad.” There is an “imaginary line” separating those two. This simple “imaginary” approach became the moral standard in society.

DOING became the way for man to “change” their “evil” ways.
DO what is “right” even though it is the opposite of who you ARE, for you must fit into the ideal. Repress yourself. Sacrifice yourself for some ideal or for some god. That is the way to reform yourself. Call it “Love” to make it pretty and acceptable.

Even though the above is appealing to the masses, it denotes lack of awareness.
If you are rich, and become poor just because Jesus was labeled as poor; what you are DOING is increasing your ego. The façade of making yourself poor from wealthy, has the emotional bitterness of having “lost” many things along with the pride and hope of getting way more stuff in heaven, while believing that this ACTION will gain you respect from those who cannot DO that feat. The mind comes up with self-serving wild stuff sometimes, I wonder if we are aware of that? 🙂

Jesus wasn’t “poor.” He always had what he needed.  Is that “poor”? We just judge and label according to our conditioned standards. BEING deconditioned from the need to possess things, creates the “poor” image among conditioned individuals.
Buddha wasn’t vegetarian. He wasn’t for vegetables and avoiding/rejecting meat . He did not make the “effort” to become vegetarian.
If Buddha ever said: “I am vegetarian” that wouldn’t be a Buddha speaking; but followers will insist on following what they perceived to be “right”, even though is not natural for them. It is “effort,” it is “hard,” then to “practice” that becomes the source of ego,  for there is something to set people apart, to show others who is spiritual, divine, worthy of heaven, rather than a simple, mundane human being. Another ego trip. It is about “proving yourself” of your worthiness.

To copy or follow someone does not bring AWARENESS, it brings forth a human being who is not able to acknowledge who he is and thus, to have the capacity to love himself. 

The “keyword” nowadays is to Decondition. It is a fashionable word! Spirituality at this time, is about deconditioning. If our conditioning is all we know and we want to “become better” as an extension of our conditioning, that is a mirage, although it sells lots of “spiritual” books.

How do we start?
By living closer to Nature. (It is free of charge!) There may not be many self-realized beings who haven’t spent lots of time in Nature as part of their own deconditioning process from “normal” society.
Let me explain the “benefits” through “Office world” terminology: That will demote the position of the mind as the CEO of ourselves. The mind will be just another salaried employee in the “I” company. That step is a big “company merger.” By going through this process, the way we look at Life will be totally different. We will not be “normal” anymore nor “subnormal”, the mind will not be there to “scheme” political moves against itself.
We could be “abnormal” just along the line of other “abnormal” beings like Jesus, Buddha, etc. Perhaps we could be unknown, without followers, without “teachings” to share but nevertheless, full of Life.  🙂

Deconditioning from holy words

What is the value of collectively defining who we are?
Some definitions: Souls, Love, Spirits, bodies, nothing, everything, etc.

When we hear that we are “truly love,” what actually that means?
Nothing. However, we like to repeat that; we like to make it into a discussion, we like to create spiritual workshops, classes with such definitions.

Our minds maybe interested in information, in the latest discoveries of science in reference to our “true” nature, or in the latest religious belief; but until we abandon completely the things of the mind, there cannot be inner knowledge, there cannot be a starting point in self- realization.

Our society surrounds us with useless information in “spiritual topics,” away from the awareness of our presence. That information will foster our addiction of living Life through the mind.

I’d like to share that “spirituality” from my viewpoint is only related with living Life fully, that means, by being aware of the “now.”

Any information as to who “I am”, or what “should be”, or what “I will become”, it is completely and utterly useless. Any questioning requiring a verbal answer is only a step away from feeling Life in the now. When the mind is engaged through those questions, Living Life “now” becomes another idea, something away from the “now.”

There is a process in Life.
Many are trapped with their own minds. The process of “liberation,” may be equal to being born again. This is not something that we can DO, but rather it happens when it is our time, then all conditions will be present. It may not be something which we call “good” according to our conditioning, but the opportunity is right there.
Before that process, we probably indulged with many answers, many beliefs. Our minds became full of information about how to become enlightened or how to be near God, or any other mental goal to entertain us.

Those mental goals only replicate our previous conditioning, what we have learned through our experience with society.

I know this may be hard to swallow. There may be many “thinkers,” arguing about the value of “spiritual” information, the value of scientific research, etc.

However, what I am referring to is not “theory.” You must experience it to understand.
Unless you abandon all the definitions about yourself; there cannot be a space to observe the mind.
Without observing the mind, there is no chance of being AWARE of how much the mind interferes in our joy and in the experiences where letting go and surrendering to Life are needed.

Love, sex and death are such experiences. The mind will interfere with questions and answers in its need for control. Greater need for control means a great inability to surrender to the moment.

Most everyone admires children. That innocence, that ability to live in the “now,” that energy comes from no-mind. As the child is trained to worship words and ideas, to obey certain paragraphs, his Life becomes mental and from there, goals, achievements, purposes will drive their lives and take away their joy.

This does not mean that society corrupts the children. No. Society only provides with a Life under a different consciousness. The child will learn to call that consciousness “real,” the “real Life,” when in fact, it is only a perspective of it. 🙂

 The journey of Self-realization

I live in Tampa, Florida. Our winter here is pretty mild so far. I went to Lima, Peru for vacation to visit family.
In Lima, the Sunshine is emerging as Summer is on the way.
I could not be able to fully appreciate the weather in Tampa unless I go somewhere else, ideally to the opposite experience. Self-realization uses pretty much the same “method.”

Most of us are comfortable with our Life styles. We have been conditioned.
To be conditioned is not a “bad thing,” it is just the “outside” becoming the “inside” to put it in simple words.
Therefore, there is a need to “distance” from the outside to become AWARE.

Life has many “methods” for this when the person is ready to initiate the journey of self-realization.
Someone may lose everything that his conditioning has valued. Another may find an extremist religion to get out of his conditioning. Another may experience a disease, a life threatening situation or the death of a loved one. Those events will force the individual to see Life from a different perspective: It is either to change to survive in newness or to embrace their own physical death.  Newness is the outcome of either “choice,” thus there is no “good or bad” choice.

At the end of this “game,” whether we endure, suffer, complain, etc. trying to be the same, to remain the same, to maintain “status quo;” Change will appear. This realization may be the beginning of “spiritual” intelligence in Life.

I can appreciate now the weather in Tampa, Florida. I am aware of the subtle changes of green shades on trees, vegetation, and the intensity of the sun. I am aware of the wind, its cooling effect in Winter rather than the gentle breeze it used to be in the Summer. The above,  may be nonsense for someone who is entrenched in the “office world” and the “political activities through economies of scale,” living fully in the world of the mind.

Want to know what self-realization may entail?
To get out of our current conditioning, fully, without a chance to go back until the “new” conditioning takes effect.
That is all, but when is happening to “you”… not to many are able to survive.
But if you survive, there is an issue. What is the problem?
To call the “new” conditioning “truth,” “reality” and all of those self-empowering words that only brighten the halo of the “I.”

To be able to perceive different perspectives is the origin of clairvoyance (clear vision.)
Summer is different than Winter. We call them opposites, but they are not. They are different shades of the same experience.
The same happens with every human being. Every human being is experiencing a particular shade of the full range of experiences. This awareness brings understanding of the human dilemma of “doing the right thing” or “being a good person.” Those labels only have meaning through a particular perspective, a particular viewpoint, conditioning…

The “Office World” is just an office located in the 2nd floor of the skyscraper of Life. For many individuals, that is their only reference, their perspective, their reality. Self realization lies in getting out of that office and rather than taking the elevator to  the 100th floor, you will take the stairs to the 100th floor to learn to see Life from different perspectives. You will sweat, you will feel uncomfortable, you will suffer,  you will be tired, it may seem as if the 100th floor will never arrive. You may lose hope… but you will continue on, because you are ready. Once you get to the top… It is time to come down. That is the “reward.” The experience will free you as nothing could ever do.

That is the price of Freedom from the known, that is… Self-realization.

I have modified this blog a bit to express change. The “about” page was changed. “Exploring the Depth of Living” was simplified with the phrase: “The journey from Yoga into Tantra” while living Life in joy.

From now on, I will be sharing twice a week: Monday and Friday.
I appreciate your openness to read these articles. Change is all that could be offered in this new phase.  🙂

Enjoy the Santa (God) of your choice.

As long as the “I” is strong, our experiences with the “other world” will be with a Santa Claus type of God.

What is that? A God that will pamper our ego, a God that can make us feel “special,” “chosen.”
Why? We are not ready to look inside. We may see the experiences in our Life as violent, ugly and we think: “The world is an ugly place.”  We do not realize that it is just a mirror of what is going inside. It does not matter what we think or what we believe, just what we ARE. The pampering of our ego is necessary so we could feel good about ourselves. “You are beautiful, you are good, that is why I have selected you.” We are unable to look inside, it hurts, that is why we blame “others.”

So what do we do? We go out in the world and proselytize our experience, “the true one,” so then followers can jump in the bandwagon and call themselves “special,” “the only ones who have the truth.” Thus, a Christian Santa, a Muslim Santa, a Brahma Kumaris Santa, even a Buddhist Santa will appear to particular individuals for they are ready for the trip of self-realization. Then, followers will use that opportunity to fight against each other in the name of “God.”

Why?
As mentioned many times, because our ego needs to increase to its full capacity before it dissolves.
I am not relating a theory or another belief. Just look around! If you go left, you will end up going right. Before you go “up,” you must experience going down. In our society ruled by the mind, politics and religion are tremendous tools to increase that ego.

Of course, none of that is “bad.” It is just part of our experience in Life. Thus, we find every type of individual at different stages of consciousness, each one manifesting in Life their own part, their own role; for every single part is necessary as it is for the whole. That is how we are all One.

Thus, it is childish to judge a particular role by using certain moral standards, when the above has been understood.

Nevertheless, because we live in this society and not in utopia, we may need to follow their principles, laws, to live together. That is how we learn to integrate the “office world” of our society with Life, we keep that oneness rather than labeling the “office world” as “corrupt” or “hellish.” Those labels only increase our rejection towards it; thus our ego, as we separate from “what is.”

Of course, If you do this, it is not “bad” either, but just know that it will change, it will be the opposite sooner or later, perhaps in another Life, but it will happen, for it is the complete experience.

The “office world” could be noisy, it could be violent and that is the perfect type of scenario for every one of us to look inside. It is not a mistake or a random act what is happening. It is perfect. Trust Life.

Therefore, spirituality cannot be separated from living Life. It is not about escaping from Life to another realm, but integration, being part of it… and that is how the magic of “lesser I” will open the doors into the immensity of all.

Until then, enjoy your experience with the Santa of your “choice.” It is part of your process of evolving into a different consciousness.

If you go left, you must go right.  Why? Because Life is a circle. 🙂

Finding God

Some individuals have an idea that God is “someone,” (HIM but not HER) according to their experiences or belief systems. There are others, who have experienced the fusion of their “self” with everything else, as when the drop of the Ocean forgets to be just a drop, to become the Ocean itself.
What do they call that experience?
To be one with God.

As that experience was related to others without the experience, misunderstanding occurred.

“I am God and so are you.”
The “I” thinking to be God. That is a gross misunderstanding.

God is probably the most misunderstood word in spirituality. All definitions of God, from different believers do not match. All experiences from different believers are not the same… but yet, ironically some will call their experience, their belief, their definition or concept to be the “Only Truth.” Do you see the issue? It is ONLY about the “I” who expects to be “right.”

That is why, it becomes prevalent to look at that which is the only thing you can only know in its entirety, without intermediaries; that is YOU.

The “know yourself” is not another concept, another belief for we cannot define it, cannot put it in words.

Observe. Find out who is that “I.” Find out if the mind is that “I” or the “I” has a mind. Find out if the “I” produces thoughts. Just observe thoughts without using the mind to ask questions such as: Where do they come from? How can I stop them? The minute you use words to describe your internal universe, that is the minute your description becomes a lie.

Why? Words are static. Life is not. Words convey duality. Life is not. Words separate. Life is not. Thus, how could we use a tool which does not fit the job?

Any spirituality where literal words are used as “truth”… is truly a lie. There cannot be such a thing as the “holy words of God.”
Life cannot be described in words, thus; to learn about YOURSELF may be all there is, away from words.

We cannot know about that “someone else” who is known as God, for to know means to BE; but when “Your-self” is “no-self;” there is no difference between that ego-less “someone else” and “you.” Then, you know… “God.”

Words do not allow me to go deeper, for I cannot express myself clearly in English, if I don’t use the pronouns “I” and “You.” But let me add that what may be “real” is well beyond those 2 words. We are trapped in pretty words, in the mind.

Someone who has an “I” cannot know God.

That is known as “self-realization” or “God realization” or to make it less religious: Awakening.

The religious “I.”

The “I,” the ego does not allow us to perceive the unity of all.
That “I” solidifies separation through thinking. Thought means separation.

Look at a sunset. What do you see? The Sun, the Ocean, clouds, the sky, seagulls, fish.

All of those labels separate forms. In “reality” none of those labels exist, none of those separate things exist as separate; those things come as one, in one package, which cannot be contained as a static thing, for it is always changing as the weather changes.

By labeling, naming and counting we become more interested in descriptions, analysis and dissections… the mind is in its glory! We become a mental entity devoid of a heart to feel.
Naming, counting, describing and analysis will starve our being from feeling that landscape, that instant of Nature which will nurture us for we are part of it as well. The observer and the object being observed are related through feelings; they are one as long as there is no separation through thought.

I am not saying that the mind is “bad.” It is just an out of control “device,” just like people nowadays behave with their smartphones; there is a continuous on-going dependency. With the mind is extremely subtle for we identify with it intimately, that is why we are not aware.

When Ego exists; then to possess becomes the next thing in his agenda.

“This is Angela. She is MY wife.” The label “wife” has no meaning in “real” Life. It is just a common agreement by society, a thought. That thought has an owner, “I.”

“If I have not realized my own ego which is an illusion; How is it possible to realize other things such as God?”
It is impossible.
“Why?”
Because the illusion of the ego will color everything else “I” perceive.
That is why a religious path becomes an ego trip for many followers. That is why the “experience” of God becomes another way to solidify the importance of our ego. “MY” experience. I must be important, special… for others do not have it.

Any search for “ spiritual experiences” is without a doubt an ego trip to “thy Kingdom come.”
It is another way to escape from what is truly important, that is; to realize the self. By realizing one part of the Totality, we realize the whole. But we refuse to start with who we ARE now. We want to believe in an ideal of what “I” should be. We want to search for another ideal: MY ideal of what God should be, MY ideal of the afterlife, MY ideal of what Life should be through an out of this world “spiritual experience.”

The ego is interested in possessing the key to unlock the chakras, the method to elevate the Kundalini, to glow in white light, to meditate the “right way” in bliss, to sit next to God, to become an angel, a saint, a guru, to go to heaven… to become better, to work for God…To obtain all of those experiences…

It is true that all of those “experiences” with angels, Kundalini and chakras may happen is someone’s path, but they weren’t sought out, they came without looking to obtaining them; thus away from the egotistical mind.

The ego is not interested in diluting itself into “no-I,” into an egoless existence. The ego must continue into the afterlife and must possess the “eternal, everlasting” things.

By DOING all of those things, we are just going away, increasing the distance from realizing the self.

However, that is not “bad” for that walking away sooner or later will bring the seeker back to himself. It is just a matter of time; and that is why the ego believes in “speeding things up,” for “time is money even in the afterlife.” 🙂

It doesn’t work like that. There is a necessary assimilation/realization of Life experiences. Consciousness will move as the BEING is ready, not when the ego decides to “DO” it.

The gift of self-realization

Self-realization is a gift to mankind. The “I” offers itself to be no-self.
The “I” with all its tricks, desires, wants, plans, etc. will go away little by little creating pain and agony in “going away” from Life, just to be someone different, unknown, mysterious.

That offer is not related with an ulterior motive. It is to be part of the Totality through a particular role, according to time.

In a way self-realization is unpredictable like death. We could plan all we want for the future, but when the time arrives, there is no going back.

While experiencing this “death,” there is very little interest in any hopeful belief system for the future; in the “after life.”

Why?

Being one with Life is not in the future. It is right now.
The wonderful “I” with all his beliefs of salvation and a better Life in the future are left aside to embrace what is now. Fulfillment, enjoyment, appreciation of Life are in the “now.”

Here there is no praying necessary, nor any special offers to the Gods to be made. There is no promise of any kind to no one.
Life has no promises other than being what is, thus a feeling of appreciation to Life is the ingredient to enjoy it.
We are free.

Do we want a method to reach “heaven”?
Self -realization.
Do we want everlasting “insurance” and good “karma”?
Self-realization.

Do we want to be happy in this Life?
Self-realization.

Then, why is it that Self-realization is not being preached to others, why is it not being taught to others rather than beliefs in everlasting life in the afterlife?

We cannot teach it or preach it. It is not something to be taught or learned from a book. No one knows how to get “there,” even if there is experience of it.

That is why there are so many beliefs and so many holy books instead. Those are things that most everyone could understand or interpret, the method to “get there;” to attain that “special” state, everyone wants to play it safe by following a “planned out” trip to “Heaven,” “risk free.”

All you need to do is to believe, to follow, to entertain yourself with the thought that you are getting there, becoming, arriving … soon…

If there is no method, if there is no way to proactively pursue and obtain that self-realization, what could be “done” to attain it?

Nothing. So enjoy what is.

It is not about “doing.”
It will happen when we are ready, not before or after. “Being” ready is not about “doing” things.
When we have gone through the experiences of the pendulum of Life from one extreme to the other, and our capacity for experiencing suffering has reached its peak, in the depth of that darkness; perhaps light could be seen.

As the “I” takes that helping light to move out of that space of suffering, the “I” perhaps will realize through the experiences of Life, that there is only suffering because there is “I.”
That is a day to celebrate!

The very thing the “I“ has been struggling to and searching everywhere to attain, is in the absence of that “I.”
The medicine resides in the disease.

Suffering= “I.” Pleasure= “I.”
Thus, duality = “I.”
Non-duality?
No-“I.”

Nevertheless, observe how our society from time immemorial, has been trying to build up that “I,” through beliefs in the eternal permanence of that “I.” Isn’t that ironic?

Some say “Life is suffering.”
That is nonsense; although many are repeating and spreading that line of “spiritual wisdom.”

Life is.
Life is the mirror of the “I.”

The “I” suffers.
How is the “I” capable of being one with Life?
Through no-I.
It does not mean that we shouldn’t feel pleasure or pain. NO! It means that while experiencing those experiences we could understand the “I.”
The trauma of the experience, the anxiety, the neediness, the “I cannot live without it” state or the “I need more of that;” those are the ingredients which acknowledge a well built up “I.”

If we stop the urge out of compulsion to practice asceticism or if we go all out for it in full indulgence, both extremes will increase our experience of suffering. It is the “I” driving the show.
Do we see that?
Thus, the middle-way… which is not “middle-way,” but there are no words to express inner balance within Life.
The word is harmony. Behind that word there is absolute emptiness.

Ohh.. now I get it! That is why the “I” cannot “do” anything to become one with Life!
Because anything the “I” does, takes the “I” away from Life. It is the doing of the “I” which gives greater presence to the “I.”

You said it. However, know that it cannot be said. For everything which is said, it is half-truth and half-false. Duality within words.
Words are only deceiving pointers to a place with no name.
Do you see the “truth” of this article?
See its “falsehood” as well.
The “truth” cannot be written in words.

Until July 6th! 🙂