Opening to life to let the “inner child out” By: Mathias
Mathias, the “wise tree” was speaking with his friend Ananda about the importance of opening to life.
Mathias: “If your “opening “is small you will not be able to feel, and something which does not feel has a limited expression. Usually; in rare occasions it will express; its manifestation is lack of satisfaction; thus, opening is the key.
Now, do we need to think about it to have that opening? No, it doesn’t depend on that.
Opening is part of the experience of feeling. To feel then is the experience which allows you to be combined and that will keep you in a common union with your environment. While being in that opening, in that common union, that becomes a celebration.
Extremes are not healthy. Neither something in between.
It needs to be complete, ample. But always leave an empty space like in the stomach. Oxygenation must be complete but in nourishing ourselves there has to be a space in this, because that space gives movement to sound. In the physical world, sound is very important.”
Ananda: “When our expectations are not fulfilled, then we feel a need to “protect” ourselves so we don’t suffer. Is that opening not to have expectations?”
Mathias: “Friend, What do you protect?”
Ananda: “It is like an “internal child.” As if this inner child feels mistreated. It is as if the environment is harsh. The expression of the world causes suffering in that inner child.”
Mathias: “You need to separate the “inner child” and the ego.
A child will not have the need to feel that he needs to be protected.
The one who is afraid is the ego.
The one who has that need to be protected and defended is the ego. It is not the child. The child needs to come out, because if not that child will drown.
In fact, opening is necessary to let that inner child come out, because he is locked out.
There is a tendency to confuse the inner child with ego. If that inner child does not come out it will get sick.”
Ananda: “How the inner child develops ego?”
Mathias: “The inner child does not develop ego. That inner child is always there. There is ego and inner child. The inner child always is the inner child.
Ananda: “How ego comes out then if a child does not have ego?”
Mathias: “It is called Growth.
When you were a small child, ego was there, but it didn’t manifest itself yet.”
Ananda: “If ego comes out of growth, then ego is not bad…”
Mathias: “Right. It is not bad. As long as it doesn’t hurt you.”
Ananda: “And that suffering will not allow you to get rid of ego?”
Mathias: “Not necessarily. You put the limit. When a small child goes out and sees fire, that child is not afraid. That child wants to see and touch the fire. He will burn himself a bit, but that pain will mark the limit.
To continue to exist does not mean to burn yourself completely, but to learn the limit.
Ananda: “What I have to learn then, is the limit?”
Mathias: “Not only yours but also the one of others. Those limits are always moving …but sound will let you know the limit,.
Mathias: “Yes. You need to learn to listen. Everything has a limit. When you exceed that limit it becomes a noise.”
Ananda:”Ego brings expectations. People will not be able to fulfill those expectations.”
Mathias: “Expectations will never be fulfilled. They are illusions.
There shouldn’t be expectations but appreciation. A small child has appreciation: smiles, looks at things, plays, admires, enjoys… that is all. He is not taking anything.
But then the child will ask with innocence and then the environment will show him the limit. But the child will not stop asking, and then life will show him that he needs to give.
Give and take, appreciation, know the limits… all of that becomes part of a training in life and this shouldn’t cause a trauma, but rather to be able to be in harmony with all of this.
Only enjoy. Learn to make music. Your internal sounds in harmony with the external: the birds, your respiration, your heart, the wind, everything in a common union.
This experience of no limits will help you understand the limits.